A long time ago, I remember one of my friends got terribly sick on New Years Day, and I was not able to share with him one of the most important days of the year. I though that was something that would never happen to me. And here I am, at home, sick, coughing, and thinking that it’s going to be a big deal to get out of this pathetic state of health.
I can’t complain. 2014 has been quite an interesting year. I got back into school, and I see an interesting working career that is possible. At the same time, as age goes up, the craving for a company goes up. And I mean, a company that shares your time, that listens to your ideas, desires, and problems; and shares the time of intimacy. After some time without a relationship, there is a growing need to form a bond. But a man is a man too. And a man must play the game to get a girl. There is a high chance that you end up getting emotionally involved despite the other person not really liking you. Sometimes it is hard to let go, and it really hits you when you find yourself at square one again, without the capacity of undo the time and undo the feelings.
I wish I had not gotten sick. I would not be laying down in bed and musing about these things…